“I don’t want to go back to the shelter because they know me from before. They will think that I haven’t moved on. That I haven’t succeeded.”
But you haven’t done well and you will need the support they offer. You are relapsing. You have no money, no food, no place to live.
Doesn’t step one begin when you say “I have a problem” and only then can you start your journey to recovery? If you can’t say to community support people that you have a problem then you aren’t saying it to yourself either.
And yet here you are not too proud to come to me for a bed, food, money and my car – again!
Note to self: I feel like I’ve already written this post before, or many times before. Maybe I need to check my own sanity.